I feel the last post I wrote was a turning point. I am finally starting to put my miscarriage behind me and looking to the future. I am not saying that I don’t still feel an ache and an emptiness inside me at my loss, because I do. Oh how I do. I think about it every day, but for the first time, I feel ready to try again.
So here I am back on road that is oh so familiar to TTC ers. I have started back charting my BBT and the sperm meets egg plan is now officially underway, much to DH’s delight. I have had two periods since my miscarriage, and both distressed me, as they brought back such awful memories of losing the baby, alongside some residual tissue 😦 Neither were they regular, and I am sure I did not ovulate the first one, but I am hoping that I will ovulate now and that we will have a second chance at conceiving our longed for baby.
I am well aware from reading all the TTC blogs that I am about to hop on that roller coaster of hope and expectation which often plunges us back down into the depths of despair. I am not sure how I am going to handle that, but it’s worth the risk.To paraphrase the old movie, hang on tight, it’s gonna be a bumpy ride….
Wish me luck?
PS Any advice on best place to get OPK kits online?
Diary of a Miracle 
Aug 01, 2009 @ 18:28:45
Best of luck.
You could try http://www.buyclearblue.co.uk which currently has a discount.
Aug 01, 2009 @ 20:37:57
Brill – thanks for the advice 🙂
Aug 03, 2009 @ 19:12:27
Good luck!
I had no idea tissue could continue coming out post-miscarriage cycles. I wonder if I miscarried again because of this…
Aug 07, 2009 @ 17:26:07
I am on my two week wait now and every day of it is dragging…fingers crossed
Sep 03, 2009 @ 08:15:32
There is a lady on ibw.com that sells OPK tests and they are reasonable – I got some last month, I will dig out the web address and send it to you.
Sep 03, 2009 @ 08:38:28
Hi Lorna, it is great to get your comments here – it means a lot to me 🙂
I have had all my hormone levels done and they have all checked out, they can’t find any reason why I should miscarry – but I suspect age and the toll of chemotherapy on my body may be a factor.
I never intended to do a TTC blog – this started life as a record of my miracle pregnancy for myself really, but then after the miscarriage, it turned into this and I found great support from others in a similar situation. I can talk about my feelings ad nauseum here, something I can’t do in real life, as everyone feels I should be over the m/c by now. Sometimes I am too upset to write about it when I am having a particularly bad day, but in general I find it the most helpful to feel part of a community who understands how I feel.
I get a real boost when someone like yourself leaves a comment of support here, so thanks once again for taking the time to do so x