On the day my baby was due

I’ve been dreading this day for a while now, made all the more difficult by the second miscarriage at Christmas. Today was the due date for the baby I lost last summer. As soon as the doctor confirmed the due date, the  date got burned into my brain..and it’s still there now. I can’t help thinking about the excitment , the preparations and anticipation this week would have brought to our lives.  We should have been bringing home our precious baby this week and all I am left with is an aching emptiness and grief. A great big baby-shaped hole, which nothing can fill.

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15 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Jane
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 15:08:36

    Thinking of you today hon. ((Hugs))

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  2. tanya
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 15:15:05

    so sorry pet…hang on in there!

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  3. alli
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 16:47:10

    I understand how you feel sweetie – I’ve had this experience too. Just honor those feelings of loss and grief and don’t try to suppress them or pretend they aren’t there. Cry if you need, scream or holler – whatever feels right to you.

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  4. inez
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 16:47:45

    ah you poor love…my heart goes out to you today. Just be kind to yourself ((hugs))

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  5. lottie
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 16:48:23

    have tears in my eyes reading your short but eloquent post. Keep believing in miracles – don’t give up.

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  6. janet
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 16:48:45

    hang in there sweetie!

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  7. suzanne
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 17:13:10

    thinking of you xxx

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  8. debbie
    Jan 19, 2010 @ 22:08:43

    Oh Honey, So sorry about that big emptiness that is aching so bad right now. I was thinking of you as I took my walk in the snow today and thinking about your dreams and hopes and how I wish that a wave of a magic wand could make them come true. You deserve every happiness and I am so sorry you are struggling today with sadness. I light a candle for you and your loss and in hopes that you will find a way to make that big emptiness shrink a little.
    Love to you, Debbie

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  9. deirdre
    Jan 20, 2010 @ 09:07:39

    thinking of you and sending you lots of loving thoughts today xxxx

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  10. mary
    Jan 20, 2010 @ 09:52:02

    stay strong and keep believing!

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  11. frances
    Jan 20, 2010 @ 10:45:41

    I experienced similar grief just before Christmas so I really understand how you are feeling right now.

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  12. rosie
    Jan 20, 2010 @ 11:04:44

    Love and hugs xxx

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  13. caroldevine
    Jan 20, 2010 @ 11:39:35

    ♥♥Love to you today ♥♥♥♥

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  14. Michele
    Jan 21, 2010 @ 18:40:03

    thinking of you…

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  15. Lorna
    Jan 21, 2010 @ 20:25:14

    xxx hugs

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